So here it is – I have cancer
More specifically – I have B-Cell Lymphoma.
Met my oncologist on Thursday last week and he, Dr. Derrick Wong, is awesome. He tolerates me well, extracts bone marrow in record time and has a great sense of humor. For the record, having bone marrow taken out hurts more than skinning your knee but less that root canal with semi-effective anesthesia or less than Thai massage when it hits a really owwwie spot. The Queen told me I should be glad I did not see the needles and bone sample things they used. I have the distinct feeling I am going to end up being like cartman http://www.southparkstudios.com/episodes/103511 – don’t watch if you don’t like southpark
He told me that my disease is incredibly treatable, no matter what stage I come back as, and the treatments are cookbook. I go to get a PET and CAT scan this week and then probably begin chemo the week after. He also said on the scale of 1 = woosy chemo and 10 = chuck-Norris-world-of-hurt chemo, mine would be a 3. If I am stage 1, it is 3 courses of chemo and 1 round of radiation – any other stage and its 6 rounds of chemo. I find out my staging after all the test results are in. If you need to pray and hope for something I would ask for 1) spontaneous remission 2) barring that let me be stage 1.
We told the kids that Daddy has cancer but that there are lots of types of cancer. Baruch Hashem, mine is very treatable. I will have 4-6 months of taking medicine and then I will be all better. Oldest asked if the medicine would make me crazy and I asked her how would she be able to tell. Middle wanted to know what color my lymph node was and what color the medicine would be. Youngest said ok and wanted to go back inside so we could play Wii.
I have spoken to many people about my disease now but it still hasn’t really sunk in – I don’t feel sick yet I have this disease in me that, if left untreated, would probably kill me in a year or so. Given all I have read, all I have heard from my friends, all I have heard from DRs, talking to other survivors, and everyones love and support I am extremely upbeat. I plan on being sick for several months and then getting back on with my life. I plan on trying to work through this whole time period. I feel extremely fortunate that this is “all” I have to deal with – it could have been so much worse.
For most of the time I am happy, upbeat, and positive. For those other times it’s not something a little nap and some nice medications can’t take care of. I am loving all the jokes and joy people are sending my way. We can all move on from sorry now and move on to kicking ass – except when I need to really milk the sympathy a bit.
I plan on looking into team in training, so I can finally get good at riding a bike. I could use some advice on DSi versus PSP (hand-held game consoles). I need something to do during my day long chemo sessions and I am totally parlaying this into getting a handheld game console. I tried to work it for a PS3 but didn’t get very far on that one and there was no movement on a 40” flat screen tv for the Wii.
Please understand if I don’t respond to comments here right away – I am busy giving my kids good daddy time, dealing with testing and paperwork, and trying to stay sane. I will try my best but no promises…
On that note you can expect some posts focusing on cancer here for a bit. I am already cooking up a diatribe on how we as a society have come to poison ourselves.